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So many events and moments that seemed insignificant add up. I remember how for the last Valentine´s Day, N gave flowers but no card. In restaurants, he looked off into the middle distance while my hand would creep across the table to hold his. He would always let go first. I realize I can´t remember his last spontaneous gesture of affection. ↗

— Suzanne Finnamore

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The snag about marriage is, it isn´t worth the divorce. ↗

— Suzanne Finnamore

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Surprises, I feel now, are primarily a form of violence. ↗

— Suzanne Finnamore

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It´s like watching someone do a triple backflip dismount and land on two feet, solid, arms splayed in the air. I know I could never do it, don´t even know where I would begin to learn, but some people are built for it. He was handcrafted to leave, had practiced on other women since adolescence. I was one of an unnumbered series. ↗

— Suzanne Finnamore

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He announces that lately he keeps losing things. "Like your wife and child," I want to say, but don´t. At fourty, I´ve learned not to say everything clever, not to score every point. ↗

— Suzanne Finnamore

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It´s a little song about abandonment, and it goes something like this.... ↗

— Suzanne Finnamore

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Take me now, God!" I shout to the inky sky. "I´m ready." "You´re not ready. You´re not even divorced yet," Bunny says. "You cannot die married to that man. ↗

— Suzanne Finnamore

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I am not ready to think of him as either insane or evil, to consider in full how I could love and have a child with such a person. I am not ready to think about anything, except ways in which this may still be averted. ↗

— Suzanne Finnamore

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I travel back in time, falling back into what I know for certain, the historical data I cling to in order to not go mad, not assume I made a suicidal and well-informed error in marrying this man. ↗

— Suzanne Finnamore

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I played possum. I did this, as the possum does, out of fear. ↗

— Suzanne Finnamore

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