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So many events and moments that seemed insignificant add up. I remember how for the last Valentine´s Day, N gave flowers but no card. In restaurants, he looked off into the middle distance while my hand would creep across the table to hold his. He would always let go first. I realize I can´t remember his last spontaneous gesture of affection. ↗

— Suzanne Finnamore

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The snag about marriage is, it isn´t worth the divorce. ↗

— Suzanne Finnamore

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Surprises, I feel now, are primarily a form of violence. ↗

— Suzanne Finnamore

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He announces that lately he keeps losing things. "Like your wife and child," I want to say, but don´t. At fourty, I´ve learned not to say everything clever, not to score every point. ↗

— Suzanne Finnamore

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Take me now, God!" I shout to the inky sky. "I´m ready." "You´re not ready. You´re not even divorced yet," Bunny says. "You cannot die married to that man. ↗

— Suzanne Finnamore

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God is great and God is good," Lisa says. "But where are the Apache attack helicopters when you need them? ↗

— Suzanne Finnamore

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I feel incendiary, a wildfire. My spirit licks at the gates of a very elaborate, customized, and distracting emotional Hades. ↗

— Suzanne Finnamore

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How do you know? How best to ensure his nervous breakdown?" I ask. "Keep going," Christian says. "Just go on as if nothing has happened. We all hate that. ↗

— Suzanne Finnamore

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How can I grieve what is still in motion?" I ask her. "Shoes are still dropping all over the place. I´m not kidding," I say. "It´s Normandy out there. ↗

— Suzanne Finnamore

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To keep myself from harming or calling N and to stave off the rage and despair, I focus on my extraordinary son, drink midrange Chardonnay every night after he is asleep, and make a barrage of late-night mail-order retail purchases placed from the couch. The couch has officially become my second battle station. I am angry and I have credit And I´m all blackened inside; I should wear a pointy witch hat around Larkspur as I go to the bank and drop A off at day care. It would be more honest. ↗

— Suzanne Finnamore

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