Urges Confessions

There are times when I just want to beat someone senseless. No holding back my punches. No pushing no bitch ass slapping. Just straight up punches hooks. Feel their bones breaking under my fists while their blood makes a mess everywhere.
Usually I don't go in a fight cuz 60% people don't get in my way. So rest I try to diffuse without fighting. But God know how I control my urges for these. I even bought a heavy bag. But that only made me a better boxer and now the urges are getting worse...
I am scared of a time when some shit happens to my close people and I won't be able to control myself and give in to my impulses. That would be very sad. But I am also looking forward to it.

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