Tenderness Confessions

As a child I had no home. My parents didn’t want me. I had to learn to never feel safe or happy, because it wouldn’t last.
As an adult I once had it all. Then I got sick.
I’ve been homeless again for a while. I’ve been helping a friend with some repairs. While there a family emergency arose. Im helping with that.
It’s so funny; the friend said thank you, I’ll get you back to your home as soon as possible.
I just smiled.

I have no home. I was just helping them, and they suddenly needed me.

I have no home.

I’m glad God is allowing me to help good people.

PLEASE GOD, HEAL THIS KIND WOMAN AND HER SICK CHILD. I’ll do all I can. Please protect and look after her other children as well. I’ll trade every moment I have left if you’ll heal this wonderful family. These tears I shed are not for me; I gave up on me so long ago. It’s for these kind people who need your love.

Its so weird sleeping in a bed and hearing laughter. I’m glad I could make them smile.

It’s so difficult to say goodbye to yesterday.

I pray I give them hope once again.

Merciful Father grant that this broken shell of a man serve you. Help me help them. Then I can fade away knowing I helped others smile again.

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