Signs Confessions

I admit that I might actually be addicted to my grandmothers pain pills. I’ve never stolen them. And I would never steal them. But I crave them constantly. It started when I had gotten COVID. I was in so much pain and I couldn’t sleep because of it. She gave me one and I was almost instantly feeling better. I was calm, it made me really happy and tired. It boosted my mood and I was able to also sleep. Once they wore off and the pain returned I had to take more or I’d be unable to sleep. Once I got better I missed that feeling of relief from the pill. I then got kidney stones. Once again she gave me a pill. It took the pain away, made me feel genuinely happy about life, then I had the best night of sleep ever. Time passed and I never felt that comfort like I did with the pill. A couple nights ago my back was in some pretty bad pain from work. She gave me half a pain pill. It put me in a happy mood and I was able to sleep like a baby. Now it isn’t bad to where I’m wanting to steal the pills, I just want to be sick or in pain so I have a reason to take them. I just like how they make me feel happy and they help me sleep. I have awful sleep ever night but with the pill I sleep like a baby. I miss the feeling. But I know I shouldn’t take them if they make me feel like that.

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I have been messing with people. But am i wrong? I never put it all together till recently. For at least 20 yrs i´ve had random people approach me & say I'm a Star Child; nordic alien; descended from egyptian pharoah; weird stuff. My dad actually rejected me because i had blond hair & strange eyes at birth.
Now I'll admit; i have some odditys that are hard to explain, but can be explained scientifically. My eyes: they are very rare & beautiful. My entire life people notice them. Ive been told they are magic, star eyes, etc. Ive had people ask if i can see the future; turn into a werewolf; etc. No; i can not. They are just unique eyes that collect extra light & seem to change colors & glow to some people in some situations. They do help me see better in near darkness than most people can. But give me headaches in bright light; so you don't want them.
Yes; a lot more butterflies used to land on me than most; but thats just because i emit a sweet smell when i sweat; & i sweat a lot. They can detect the smell & extra salt. They land on me for salt.

A lot of birds land on me. I have a very large (Gene Simmons) tounge that can bend in any direction. I'm good at mimicking animal sounds such as birds. Like a duck call works on mallards; my calls works on some birds. Yes; some uncalled birds have landed on me; i think i release an unusual pharamone when i sweat. It seems to attract nice animals. But its also my sweet demeanor. I release pharamones more than normal and they react.

When aggressive animals get near i get aggressive. My muscles start swelling up. My adreniline flies up like someone on steriods. That must cause different pharamone releases that threaten animals. I'm built like a gorilla. I get into combat mode. As a boy a large dog tried to attack me. I messed it up bad. It left missing stuff. So animals pick up on that if aggressive. A 270 muscle man can scare many animals. But not say a bear.

Yes; i had a photographic memory; was tested a genius unofficially twice; & autistic. That doesn't make me alien or magical, just smart.
Yes; a lot of women like me & ask me out. I used to look like a movie star; was built like a super hero; dressed well; drove cool cars; wore good cologne; am well endowed; am very sweet but scare other men; am protective of females & kids; & prefer to hang out with females. I'm what women wish they had in many cases. Not an alien.

So why mess with people on some sites? I'm hoping to help them. If you believe in fake stuff & it brings you happiness then thats fine; but if it hurts you then you need kindness to help you get over it.

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