Routine Confessions

I have a lust. It grows stronger every day and it keeps bugging me.

The endless routine of life is eating me from the inside. Work, Social Life, Family.., It all feels. Well it feels staged. I wanna run away really bad. Leave everything behind i have and go AWOL to a place nobody can find me. A quiet place to die. A deep dark forrest or mountain far away from civilization.

I pass the airport on my way to work every day. Every day i think about booking a flight without return. Dissapearing on a so called "vacation" I would hurt everybody i know. They will look for me. But they wouldnt know i dont want to be found

#routine   #lust   #depressed