Religious Confessions

I am a Christian I go to church but on the side I am gay and I'm afraid to tell my pastor

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I am living in sin for several months now. I have a long distance relationship with my boyfriend and we only see each other every couple of months. We've been together for over 10 years now and I am now 25 years old. We promised each other our virginity and wanted to save each ourselves for the other one. I am pretty sure that he will propose to me on Christmas, the next time we see each other.
My secret is that I've been seeing some else since summer. And that is not the worst part. The person I am seeing is also a woman.
I don't know how it happened, but we met on the bus, started to talk and it was just like BOOM! I've never felt anything like this before. I, of course, still love my boyfriend to death, but with this woman... I feel complete, I feel so happy I never thought I could feel.

We went out for drinks rather quickly and that was the same night we shared our first kiss. It was electric. It was magical.
I know now that I am totally and irrevocable in love with her.

But that is not all... She doesn't know anything about my boyfriend either.
We have to keep our relationship secret, because my family is very very very religious and they would never talk to me again if they found out.
And they of course wouldn't talk to me anymore if they only knew that I cheated on my boyfriend.

Why am I writing this now? Because yesterday... yesterday was the first time we had sex. I do not feel bad for the sex itself because it was rather spectacular and I am more than happy that I had my very first time with her. But I feel bad that I am living a life full of lies and that I betrayed and cheated on my boyfriend, best friend since middle school...

I don't know what to do know. I know, someday everything will unravel, but I just don't know what to do....

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I get so excited on watching lady doing puja and blowing conchshell in prayer……i can’t resist myself when i see any lady blowing conchshell…..and sad part is there seems to be no end of it, as ladies in my region often conchshell while doing prayer….there are hardly any lady i can find who blows conchshell around my native….i find it so energetic and want to feel that energy……hope some day it comes true

sorry if it is hurting anyone’s sentiments

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