Pray Confessions

Now and then, I pray to the Lord to help me with my problems. It helps me keep in mind what's important in life and what's now.
But I have to confess that I tell everyone that I don't believe in God and that I'm an atheist because I'm ashamed of my belief.
Oh God, please forgive me.

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I LOVE the smell of desinfectant spray. It smells so nice and clean, simply irresistible!
That's why I clean my apartment with that spray once a week. Especially my telefon, or door knobs, my computer and stuff I touch often. In the morning, I clean my hands with it because it smells so good.
My skin already cracks and it hurts, but I don't care, as long as I'm able to smell the desinfectant spray!

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This is a true confession to God. Sorry if it offends any people who aren’t deeply religious. Faith is a personal matter. No matter how you view faith we are all equal. From the worst sinner to the kindest servant. God loves us equally.

Heavenly Father. I have sinned and harmed my wife and children. Not in any physical way. Instead in a complicated way. I was awesome. Great dad. Husband. Citizen. I have saved lives and souls. I have stood for many who were too weak. Yet I endured hell as a child. Instead of being mean because I endured horrors. I sought to teach; protect; forgive, and love. I tried to be a light to guide others.

But I realize something. I’m really ducked up. I endured too much. I sought help. Everywhere I went it was the same. I endured so much. They’d cry for me. One tried to save me. But then I got this disease on top of my disability. I should have died long ago. I keep beating all the odds.

Everyone is hurting bad. Three are on the edge physically. I think they are all suffering so bad because I went to die. I’d prepared them. I was dying. Yet here I am. I’m in a limbo between life & death. I can’t get up & stay up long enough to help. But I don’t die. I have no way to fix this.

I tried praying. I waited for help. I tried to fix my body. Ate right. Gave up & ate wrong. Nothing works.

But my health failing left them without me. I prayed for others to step up. No one did. People tried to failed. So I’m going to try to rise again. I’m not going to ask for help. Instead I’m going to just do it my way this time. Just me. I’ll probably fail. If you want to help I could use it. But I’m going to try myself. So give me a push or leave me to sink. All I’m asking is you quit dropping more & more crap on me. Stay out of the way. But I’d rather have help. I’ll settle for I just get to try w/out worse stuff.

I’m tired. I just started on a new path today. Maybe I can. I won’t pray for help. Instead I pray you heal my wife & children. Let me try to help. I just can’t handle much more. But I’m trying.

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