Kindness Confessions

I dont feel sympathy. I want people to feel shitty about themselves so i can laugh at them. Im not kind in the slightest and it scares me.

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I tutored someone on how to get an interview for a great job. It worked. Did they thank me? No. They took all the credit.
When someone shows you kindness and helps you better yourself, why not say thank you?

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As a child I had no home. My parents didn’t want me. I had to learn to never feel safe or happy, because it wouldn’t last.
As an adult I once had it all. Then I got sick.
I’ve been homeless again for a while. I’ve been helping a friend with some repairs. While there a family emergency arose. Im helping with that.
It’s so funny; the friend said thank you, I’ll get you back to your home as soon as possible.
I just smiled.

I have no home. I was just helping them, and they suddenly needed me.

I have no home.

I’m glad God is allowing me to help good people.

PLEASE GOD, HEAL THIS KIND WOMAN AND HER SICK CHILD. I’ll do all I can. Please protect and look after her other children as well. I’ll trade every moment I have left if you’ll heal this wonderful family. These tears I shed are not for me; I gave up on me so long ago. It’s for these kind people who need your love.

Its so weird sleeping in a bed and hearing laughter. I’m glad I could make them smile.

It’s so difficult to say goodbye to yesterday.

I pray I give them hope once again.

Merciful Father grant that this broken shell of a man serve you. Help me help them. Then I can fade away knowing I helped others smile again.

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I’m the Real Deadpool part 2. My kids figured this out the first time Deadpool was in a movie. They were watching him in the movie with Wolverine. He was talking endless trash to Logan. Wolverine said something like “don’t you ever shut up”.
My kids and wife came rushing in to get me. Dad, your in a movie. So I went in as they re winded. Yep. That’s me. They went on & on. He talks just like you dad. He’s even smarting off to Wolverine. He never shuts up. He’s not afraid of anybody. That’s me; I’m convinced I’d defeat any other man on earth if he started the fight. And I have always told my kids I can dodge bullets. They’ll say can you really dodge bullets, I’ll say nah, I’ll just cut them in half with my swords. I am a non stop comedy routine.
Growing up I heard that not stop, and as an adult. “Don’t you ever shut up?” No.
I crack endless jokes. I cuss endlessly. I’ve already revealed the real origin on this site. But one of my children tickled me. When the first Deadpool movie came out they were convinced. The non stop trash talk. Two ninja swords. Two guns. Endless cussing. Attitude. All the gymnastics & athleticism. Non stop jokes. The color red. I have a lot of red clothes. But I wear other colors too. Mostly black or camo.
She put it all together. I’d just laugh. So she’s off to college. I was cleaning her room. The kid has Deadpool stuff everywhere. She’d say I know your really Deadpool. I’d say that’s make believe.
So I go into my youngest kids room. He bought a real ninja sword. Colored red of course. I show him my sword collection. All are sets of two. He pulls me back in his room.
Look what I found hid in the garage. Dad you had a ninja outfit. Look at all these weapons. There’s two of everything. Can you show me how to use some of these? He even made me put on the ninja shoes. I laughed. I wear military climbing boots. Not two toed sock shoes. This is not a movie.
So I’m using 2 of each weapon at once. Sai; nunchucks; butterfly swords; butterfly knives; ninja swords, on & on. In real like two K bars are a better choice. But swords look cool.
He was amazed to watch me use a long fighting staff, and chain & sickle at the same time. He’s like wow dad how do you do that? I can spin a 6 foot staff like a baton with one hand; with the other hand I can whip out the chain & snap it back, catching it in the hand still holding the sickle. I got a three sectional staff & started using them like nun chucks. I’d toss them in the air, rotate as I dropped into a low stance, catch them.
Word of caution children. Don’t try any of this. If you play with toy guns paint them in bright colors so they look like toys. Stay in your back yards under adult supervision. If you go around with toy guns some bozo might call the po po. Don’t get killed trying to be cute. There’s a big difference between make believe and the real world. Some old inbred neighbor that watches too many crime shows sees you with a toy gun. Tells the po po your a dangerous criminal. A poor cop pulls up thinking your a deadly criminal. Your life ends. That poor cop has to live with that horror the rest of their life. I’ve seen real death. It’s nothing like in a movie. It’s sad. It sticks with you. I’ve held someone’s hand and prayed for them as they died. Always remember. That’s pretend. I’m about the closest thing to a real super hero as there is, and I’m not delusional. Death is permanent. Enjoy this life. Laugh. Love. Forgive. Be kind. Vote for decent humans.
One of me in this world is one too many. The world needs an army of kind loving people. Sure; I’m entertaining. I’ve saved a few lives. But who has saved more lives than me? Impacted more lives than me? Teachers. Nurses. Firemen. Those are real heroes. I’m just a clown.
I can literally catch flies out of the air, or kill them with my swords. Amazes my kids. I typically just catch them & throw them out side. I’m a very kind person. They laugh when I carefully catch a grasshopper & take it outside. But I will kill a dangerous animal. I’ll smash a poisonous spider without a second thought. In the woods I’ll pass it by, but near my house I take it out. Same for snakes.
I love kittens and kind dogs. I hate pit bulls. Never own an animal that may turn on someone’s child. Your neighbors child is priceless. Your dog is an animal. Never run back into a burning building to save an animal. You are more important.
As I said; I’m the Red Ninja. Deadpool was just a joke I sent to Marvel. Bizarro me. I’d kick his butt. I don’t take credit for him. I gave the idea away. To me it was a joke. Would a deranged version of me be a good character? It let me know my much better characters would be great. I always intended to have my own comics; books; sell my art, but life gets complicated. I thought maybe one of my kids would want it. Nope. So I trashed it all. Too much junk. It’s like trophies and medals. At a certain point they are just a bunch of junk taking up space.
I used to draw comics. I had 1,000’s of characters so much better than Deadpool. The Red Ninja was just some goofy character I started making up as a little boy. He became way cooler than Deadpool. But he was just one of my lamer ideas. I had much better.
I had paintings and art I’d drawn for years. Books I’d hand written. I destroyed them all and sent them to the dump.
But my youngest found an old scrap book. In it was a picture of a ninja from the 1970’s. He showed me that and said look dad. That’s Deadpool. I said no. That’s the Red Ninja. I was never Deadpool. He’s the bizarro opposite universe version of me. Darn it. Thought I tossed out all that mess. So now he’s like wait... Did you invent Deadpool? No. I mailed a childhood idea to Marvel. I gave them an idea. I hoped they’d put it in their comics. It was one of my lamest. I had at least 1,000 better characters. But they invested the time & money into it. The fans made him matter.
But the fans would have never liked the real guy, me! I’m the bizarro Deadpool. The one from this universe. The Red Ninja. Sure; I was talented, but nothing special.
I held the door for elders & females. Helped people in need. I pray for people. I wear a cross. I’d feed the homeless. I stand up for gay rights (no I’m not gay). I will set & listen to the disabled.
Here are a few things I’ve done in my life. If I found learning toys on sale. Coloring books. Washable crayons. I’d buy a buggy full. Find a small school that helps disabled children. Church schools. I’ve even walked up to a public school and had the office walk me to the class for special needs children.
I helped build playgrounds. I’ve walked up & handed over cash for homeless shelters; to buy wheel chairs & crutches for disabled children; to help abused women & children; for the families of fallen police officers. Exciting huh?
I had hopes my kids would want to make something out of my dreams. Instead; they are doing what I taught them, chasing their own dreams.
So I’m just some old guy fading away. I have no delusions. I was one very unimportant person. When I pass only a handful of people will care. The world will not care. So what. Better to be a kind person and not remembered, than remembered for cruelty.
I get to goto Heaven when I die, so that’s as good as it gets.
Here on earth I’ll die broke. But I lived. I loved. I laughed. I entertained. I helped. I protected. I showed kindness. I forgave. I cared.
So maybe I never mattered to the world. But the world mattered to me.
You choose what you are in this world. Don’t let others tell you what you are. You don’t have to be rich or famous to smile and laugh.
Just the other day I saw this over weight young lady with oddly colored hair. I saw she was stressed. People in the restaurant were being rude to her. So I smiled and asked how her day was going. I complemented her hair. Thanked her for working hard. Wished her a nice day. We all matter. The person handing you a burger matters just as much as some dude dribbling a ball in gym shorts on TV. Hey; I could do a 360 slam too, big deal. I’m more impressed when I see someone helping a child learn to walk with crutches. My version of a hero is quite different from most people’s.
No man is so great as a man who will bend a knee to help a child in need.

nuff said

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