Joy Confessions

I enjoy the sorrow, misery and pain of others. It does not have to be anything crass, but I get giddy and really really gleeful if I watch someone struggling.
I ROARED with laughter when I watched a young mother lose her baby's pacifier in a drainpipe and the baby started crying.
When I am walking through town and occasionally stop and watch, hoping for something funny to happen - I love watching people struggling with heavy objects.
I love watching fail compilations on YouTube.

Unfortunately, I now read on the internet that this glee and joy for the pain of others might be connected to feelings of inferiority.
I confess that I worry that should be ashamed for my key source of joy in my life. And that I love my fellow human beings the most when they are stuck in a water slide.

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It all started when I was 9 years old . My family needed to travel for a few weeks and hired a sitter for me, As I had to be at school without a long absence if I was to move up to the next grade without Summer School ! Bob was young, athletic and good natured so we were a better fit than I understood at that time. Over the first few hours, we got closer and closer. Bob was very attentive to me and my whims. He would look deeply into my eyes it was as if He was reaching my soul. This drew me even closer to him. soon there was a bit of brushing my hair out of my eyes & soon there was gentile furtive brushing my hair back or out of my eyes, light pats, touches or rubs and this made me feel pleasantly different than usual. After several hours of talk and play I was beginning to feel very relaxed and strangely attracted to by all the attention.. Then, He looked very deep into my eyes for a long time which started to arouse me and he pulled me very close up to him. I could feel his heat and became aware of his musky scent which gave me a tingling in my crotch. Now he clasped my head in his hands and and firmly planted a very sensuous French Kiss on my stunned lips. His tongue pushed into my mouth and started a fire to smolder that I never knew was possible. We Kissed again and again ,each time with more heat and a rising passion that I could not yet understand. We ground into each other as his hands ran all over me. he gave me hot kisses on my earlobes and the sides of my neck as he worked my shirt open. soon he was tweaking and kissing my nipples and this was making me burn with lust and desire for things I did not as yet understand. Then he let his hands slipped down on my globes in a very warm and sensuous way as he squeezed and massaged. Somehow he managed to drop my pants and undershorts to the floor and step me clear of them. Bob kissed my shoulders and chest as he removed my shirt and I was now very aroused and could not think what to do about it. gentily Bob's fingers moved from my globes towards my crevice and went lightly exploring as he moved inward. I felt a light electric fluttering as the finger tips brushed my rear entrance, but soon the touch was more intense and pulsation on that small rosebud. Out of nowhere some Crisco appeared on his fingers and it was soon spreading around my entrance with a pulsing and thrusting motion. I started to thrill to this new intense sensation and he slipped a finger slowly in and out ever so slowly with a twisting and circular motion. This got a follow up of a second finger and a more vigorous stretching and expanding motion. I noticed that my small tool was now very hard and then I felt a third finger join the stretching party. By now I was loosening up and becoming very relaxed, so I started to thrust back on his fingers as he pushed in and after some time He was all in up to the third knuckles and now rotating too ! Bob withdrew slowly from me while giving me a very hot and deep French Kiss that seemed to reach way down into me. At this point he took my hand and lead me easily down the hall to the Bedroom ! Once there, he places his hands on my shoulders and gently pushed me down on my knees as he moved in with his fully erect Cock which he rubbed on my lips as he massaged the nap of my neck. As his cock brushed back and forth on my lips, it was as if I was mesmerized and my mouth opened as he slid in. I closed my lips around his head and got to work with my tongue and soon he was thrusting in and out, all the time going a bit deeper. After a while he was all the way down my throat with his 8 in. tool and I was loving it ! Then he stopped and let me, up so he could take me onto the Queen sized bed. He whispered in my ear hotly that he needed me and wanted to make me his ! He asked if he could have an orgasm deep inside of me because he wanted and needed me badly. We French Kissed for a bit and I said YES that I needed that too ! After a time he moved into the missionary position and prepared to open my carnal love canal up, wide ! I was so besides myself with Heat, Passion & Raw Lust, that I would have done absolutely anything he asked of me ! Many very enjoyable hours had past to get me to this point and now I wanted to give it up completely to become his cock slut and pussy-boi ! Bob took firm but gentile charge and mounted me to make me his Bottom as I spread my legs open to give him all the access he wanted. Bob kissed my little head just a short bit, then scooped my legs under the knees and raised them to my chest as he slid a hard pillow under my buns which gave him perfect alignment to enter me. i placed my arms and shoulders over my calfs, thus locking my position up to give Bob all the action room he wanted. We continued to French Kiss and feel each other all over. I felt a tapping on my rosebud and it sent thrills through out my entire body. this continues for sometime and got stronger and stronger which sent me over the edge with craziness as I was now so hot that I was mumbling incoherently and begging Bob to ram me hard and deep, as I tried to thrust to meet his teasing thrusts ! Now Bob moved forward a bit at a time with each thrust going in slowly and deeper. After some time when he was well in, he met with some resistance that had him pause. Then he told me that he now needed to break my anal cherry and there would be some pain, but if I could bear with it the feeling afterwards would be beyond anything I could even imagine as it spread throughout my mind and body ! I told him I wanted to be his and he should go ahead with it ! Bob braces himself and quickly placed a French Kiss lip lock on my mouth that completely covered any possibility of sound coming out and strongly thrusted forward into my deep as I yelped as the pain consumed me. Now he paused to let me get my balance and let the pain subside. Soon he was thrusting in and almost out slowly again and now was starting to feel like I was being elevated to paradise on a cloud ! The feeling was very electric & thrilled every cell in my Body to the point of disorienting me far away from reality ! My Lover soon picked up the pace of his thrusting until he was hitting into me hard fast and strong and I was thrusting to meet him with all my strength ! I never dreamed Life could get this joyous & Good and juice was flowing freely ! After some time I felt a charge in my crotch & Bob filed my deep up with a massive breathtaking Orgasm that shook us both from end to end ! Now,I was marked as His & a wide open Happy Bottom ! This was just the first 24 hours of a month long Sitting Job and I was an eager student that was willing to learn to do it all. We were at it every day, as often as our strength would allow ! After that, I went to his place on the down low almost ever day to practice what we shared together freely but privately ! Then he bought other Men Friends around to try me out and I just loved the variety that some of these hot sessions brought ! Most of these men loved my Carnal Skills and use them as often as they can even now !

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I love Toy Story the movie. And I mean I LOVE LOVELOVELOVE LOVE it. It simply brings me a feeling of joy and peace and I strongly associate it with my childhood.
I am obsessed with it. (But only the first movie) I watch the movie almost daily, sometimes even twice in one day.
Of course, there are days when I am busy meeting friends and family and not able to watch 78 minutes, but usually after work, when I am alone, it is TOY STORY TIME!
This week alone, I watched the movie 4 times. And I will watch it again tomorrow. I like. I know every line by heart and sometimes I get a phrase or a sentence stuck in my head all day.
Weird, right?

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