Infatuation Confessions

A couple of years ago, I met a very unforgettable person. I only met her twice, unfortunately. She worked at a local pharmacy. She was not my type, but she most certainly was extremely attractive to me. I have only met a couple women in all my life who made such an impression on me in so short a time.

I don't even know her name. She was working at the counter. On the surface, our conversation was completely normal, but I almost lost my mind. Why??? She was very conservatively dressed. She was wearing a hijab and a lab coat. Super conservative. She was pretty, but not unusually so, except for her eyes. Her eyes were large and expressive.

It wasn't what was said. It was in the pauses. I almost lost myself in her eyes. I know she felt it too. She tried to prolong the conversation, just like I did. She held my hand during our brief conversation. Who does that with a stranger? I wanted so much to kiss her. I usually find kissing awkward and unenjoyable, but I wanted to kiss her very badly.

A couple of months later, I finally had another prescription, and it happened again. She remembered my name. I desperately wanted to give her my phone number, but I thought it was too forward, and I couldn't even say why I was so thrilled in the first place. Still, I was mad at myself.

Then the next time, she was gone.

I couldn't say what I so desperately wanted to say to her, because I was married, and she was just someone I'd met very briefly. Meeting her was incredible, and I can't really say why. Why did this woman bring up such emotions in me? And where is she now?

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