Hypersexuality Confessions

my partner and i don’t have sex or sext at all anymore because their ocd causes them intense discomfort when talking about sex - i’m a very hypersexual person, but also i’m fine with masturbating as that’s how i got along before this. however i keep getting tempted to make accounts on stuff like adultfriendfinder and grindr just to receive offers to have sex - even if i did, i don’t have any interest in having sex with others or following through with these offers or anything at all, i just get very turned on at the feeling of being wanted sexually, which, obviously, i don’t experience in any way anymore.

i don’t plan to cave to that occasional mid-masturbation temptation, but if i did, is that cheating? (it is, right?) am i a bad partner? what do i even do? it’s not their fault that they can’t have or talk about sex at all, so it’s not like there’s an issue they can fix or something they’re doing wrong. sometimes i masturbate to the thought of going to a gloryhole or otherwise having anonymous sex and just saying nothing about it, but i wouldn’t do that to them. i just don’t know what to do man.

#cheating   #hypersexuality