Homophobia Confessions

Am I a racist homophobe?
A woman recently accused me of being racist. We were watching women play soccer. She asked who I found attractive. So I picked out a few females. All were white. So that was racist. Well nearly every player was white.
Later we watched women’s basketball. The only female I found attractive was a tall Nigerian. Again she said I was racist. She said I only liked her because she looked white. She had dark skin. Are Nigerians part white?
I don’t think my roommate knows what racism is. Each person owns there own body. They have a right to choose who they’d like to date. If a black Muslim only wants to date black Muslims that’s fine. If a white Hindi only wants to date Asians with a foot fetish that’s fine.
You also have a right to tell your children who you wish they’d date. Such as an atheist who only wants their children to date atheists. Your child has a right not to listen.
Racism would be if I tried to tell my black co worker they shouldn’t date whites.
I myself am very mixed. I think my roommate wants me to find the exact same people attractive she does. She mocks gays. Yet she knows which females are attractive? How?
Then she said I’m homophobic because of my answers no men.
She asked me which male athletes I found attractive. None. She says that’s homophobic. I told her I can tell her who I think women find attractive.
When I was a teen I assumed it was muscular men. I’m very muscular. I assumed that’s why women liked me. They always talked about my muscles. So I assumed they like body builders. Turns out I was wrong.
In college I realized women liked my face. So I’d ask who they found attractive. Tom. Val. Brad. So I decided that must be attractive men to women.
So when I answered that to my roommate she got mad. Apparently none of those men are attractive. So I asked who she found attractive.
Snoop. LaBron. Huh? I’m no woman so who knows. Snoop is funny, but is he attractive? He looks like a poorly kept Shaggy. LaBron looks like he’s never exercised; eats nothing but chips, and doesn’t know how to use a pair of scissors. That beard is not well groomed. His face looks kind of like a Wookiee.
So I asked to see a picture of her boy friend. 5’6”; 300 lbs; man boobs; several chins; bald head; his arms flop way down; huge saggy butt; giant flabby thighs, so that’s attractive?
Here’s my opinion. I think it’s great that she finds him attractive. He looks like the male version of her.
But I’m very fit and muscular. I have movie star looks. I don’t remember ever trying to decide whose attractive. I think my mind just finds women with good facial bone structure and strong fit bodies attractive. I think it’s a combination of biology and experience.
I was always asked out by the pretty females and the athletic females. I’m attractive and athletic. So that’s who I dated. That’s who I find attractive. But I dated blacks; whites; Hispanics; and Asians, so I don’t think I’m racist.
As for homophobic. I actually support gay people. But I can’t relate to being gay. How can I tell you which men are attractive? None of them attract me. I don’t see that as being homophobic. And how can I know which men women find attractive?
She also says I’m conceited because I say I’m attractive. Well she says I am. I have strangers stop and tell me how attractive I am. So am I conceited? I don’t find me attractive. But women seem to.
This is why I try not to talk to people about stuff like this. They get mad so easy.

#racism   #homophobia   #vanity  

When I was a junior in high school I shoved my books in the storage area under the desktop one day and at the end of class discover ed one of my books had a large glob of cum on it. No idea how that happened but I had a sandwich bag left over from lunch so I carefully saved it into the bag. The classroom had emptied out and no one observed my perviness. That night I smelled and dipped my fingers in the cum and ended up licking and swallowing. No idea why I acted this way. Never blew another guy, never had cum fantasies.

A couple of years later I went into a public rest room and found cum splatter, a large jerk off's worth in the middle of the tiled floor. Being alone, I tried to retrieve as much as I could though I didn't have an adequate container. Did my best and again played with the cum when I got home.
Now I have a full fledged cum addiction. Still not gay so I have to rely on my own cum.

I make cumsicles in my freezer adding one load on top of another until I have a frozen ice cube tray (one or two cubes, not a whole tray). I suck a cube letting it melt until I have a mouthful of cum. Standing in front of the bathroom mirror I let my warm cum drip down my chin. Then I swallow the rest and check my mouth to make sure I've swallowed all I could. For a couple of hours I have cum breath.

I know this is a weird fetish. My girlfriend won't let me cum in her mouth or on her face which is very disappointing. I have gone to an adult video store with the intention of sucking off some guy just for the total cum experience. So far, I've chickened out at the last minute. Either I need to find a more understanding girlfriend or get over my homophobia. My cum addiction must be fed!

#cum   #addiction   #homophobia   #fetish  

Is it racist not to like rap? One of my roommates asked me if I liked certain groups. I’d never heard of most of the groups or songs. She says that’s racist.
I was born in the 1950’s. So I’m supposed to listen to whatever’s popular now?
So she asked to see my play list. I’ll tell you a few. Let you decide. Little Richard. Bee Gees. Mozart. Gaga. Madonna. 3 Doors Down. Oz. Tim McGraw. Beyoncé.
So yes; I do not like much rap, but is that racist? She asked why I don’t like rap. Well I can play music. I like good singing. I like good messages. Like the songs I Can Only Imagine, and Baby Your a Firework.
To me rappers can not sing; nor play instruments, so how is that even music? Also; most rappers sing negative words, and act like 2 bit thugs. So I wouldn’t want to be around them.
To her if you reject rap you don’t like black people. She says rap is the voice of black people. I disagree. I don’t think every black person sells drugs and steals. I think rap is a celebration of terrible people who harm others.
It’s like mafia TV shows. They are interesting if well made. But I wouldn’t want to know any of them in real life. Bunch of thugs.
So I don’t think I’m racist just because I’d rather listen to Carrot Top try to sing than some rapper.
Also. I don’t like old country music either. I do like the new stuff that sounds like 70’s rock.
I have to say I think my roommate is the actual racist. I don’t think she likes white people. She says she’s not. She also openly mocks Christians; Jews; Hispanics; Asians, and gays. So I think she’s the actual racist.
Is it just me? Or do a lot of people with the biggest accusations, actually resemble what they are angry about?
I’ll give one more example. She complains about every brutality against black case. I knew all the details. But when I brought up autistic white children terminated in the same ways; not only had she never heard of it, she didn’t want to hear about it. She said it was racism to even bring it up.

#racism   #homophobia