Gamer Confessions

There is this woman I know around in my town in Australia who is a a real geeky sort (like me), and who is a bit weird and aspie (unfortunately, also like me) - turns out, she is transgender.

I was born a guy BTW, and aside from this woman who basically used me for money and another who just, well, she was a fucking nutter herself (more than me, which is rare), I'm so insanely jealous of this transwoman that, to the point, I want to do the transition myself. Gamer girls get a lot more sex (from both men and women) than gamer guys, and I can tell you, I would just love the attention. Hell, I plan to work in porn if I have to. There are some sick bastards out there and I would just love to be the centre of attention, but in a way that, to me, is beautiful. (I know other people won't agree but I don't care).

Though I'll still be the same geeky person I always have been. Heck, wonder if I am in fact transgendered and my encounter with this person just triggered those feelings within me, or - hell if I know. Still, I do like the idea of being a transgender female, though I can't imagine the discrimination and loss of "male privilege" as the SJW crowd call it being too much fun. I just want to get rid of my disgusting male self but I really don't want to do myself in if I can help it. Maybe becoming a woman would help me restart my life. Yeah, I'm basically a whore in my mentality. So what? No-one has any right to judge me.

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