Feltsadmightdeletelater Confessions

I am filled with anger. Anger that is slowly bleeding away to hate.

Everyone is so fucking busy blaming and blamming each other into the dirt. Nobody either seems to or wants to understand, that regardless of your age, sex, gender identity, whatever label you proudly slap onto your chest, that we're all people just trying to get to the next fucking day.

You ever catch yourself wishing for super powers or magic? Doesn't matter how old you are, everybody does it from time to time.

Every time I come back to the same thing: Someone the entire world can rally together against. Of course it would never work and it's a fucking pipe dream, but it only fuels my fucking hate for the people around me.

I don't have high expectations. In fact they're rather simple. Survive, help others survive, get to that next sunrise, then figure it all out again, with the only ever present constant being that we, Humanity, are stuck on this goddamn dirtball TOGETHER.

But the only ones interested in saying anything like that only care about the audience they'll bring. The "clicks and the views" WOOOOO.

Fuck them.
And fuck you if you're one of them.

This will likely be buried in the sands of time. Sure maybe one or two, shit I might even get lucky and twenty whole people will see it.

But will it change anything? Will it get anyone to think? No. Because I'm either:

Alt-right because I don't agree with someone.

Alt-left because I don't agree with someone.

A Nazi, because I don't agree with someone.

Whatever fucking low budget brain label these fucksticks want to stick because I don't agree that there is one bad side and one good side.

And if you are one of those people, I just have a small, tiny, itty bitty criticism for you:


You're ALL FUCKING TERRIBLE.
YOU'RE A FUCKING STUPID.
YOU'RE NOTHING BUT FUCKING POTS AND PANS CALLING EACH OTHER BLACK.


YOU'RE BEING LITERALLY MURDERED IN THE STREETS BUT RATHER THAN CASTIGATE THE ONES RESPONSIBLE, YOU WANNA FUCKING GIVE IT LABELS AND MEAN SOMETHING MORE THAN IT FUCKING DOESN'T AND IT DRIVES ME TO FUCKING HATE EACH AND EVERY LAST FUCKING ONE OF YOU THAT PARTICIPATES IN THIS STUPIDITY AND YOU'RE ALL FUCKING ADDICTED TO DOPAMINE.

ADDICTED TO THAT LITTLE FUCKING PAT ON THE BACK. FUCK YOU

I'm going to die soon. The stress of being in this fucking world actively agitates bodily damage I've sustained and sicknesses I've suffered throughout life. I'm going to die, filled with hate for Humanity, all because these stupid fucks can't figure their shit out and that inability is going to be the fucking cause.

It's not everyone. There are those out there. The outliers. You know who you are.


And before anyone freaks the fuck out, I'm not acting out above kicking a shrubbery or two in my own yard.

These people, however much they fucking enrage me and fill me with hate and EMBARRASSMENT for being related to you on a genological level, are above wasting my time on aside making a random post on the internet nobody will fucking care about.


I don't think I deserve forgiveness.
I just want people to know.
However few.

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