Embarressment Confessions

Today is Valentine's day and I'm embarrassed because there is a married woman in the office who has been off and on flirting with me for a few years now and today, she is ignoring me. But, there is more to this story than that.
We were fine as friendly coworkers until she recently suggested we go out to lunch. We had a great time and it seemed to me that she was flirting with me even more, so I flirted back. Then for Christmas she gave me a key ring that had a heart on it and I gave her a CD that had some songs that were special to me. I thought she was interested in more than flirting so I told her how beautiful I thought she was and how much I wanted to go out on another lunch together. I thought I was sharing feelings that she was hoping to hear from me, but now it feel like I over-shared and pushed her away.
In December I had also worked on finding her a personalized Valentine's gift. But, since my "over-sharing", she has been ignoring me. I have this gift that I can't give her and the whole thing is embarrassing to me. The gift sits under my desk and it makes me sad.
Seeing her makes me sad. I know folks will say, I'm an idiot for thinking she would want to have an affair with me, but I'm also married and I really thought she wanted to have that with me. I still have the heart shaped key-ring. I'm sure I will feel better tomorrow - but for today it's Valentine's day and I feel horrible.

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