Cigarettes Confessions

Im a 17 year living in a small town . i tried my first cigarette when i was only 12 at first it as nothing serious i didn't even like them. after interacting with them again when i was 14 (freshman in high school) i became addicted and at first i really didn't know about brands so i would pick up random cigarettes off the floor and maybe after a couple months i became an addict to Newport's and more specifically Newport 100"s menthol. i loved the head high it gave me and i had to keep it a secret from my family so once i got a car, it became my moving ashtray. when im home and crave my addiction i go to my backyard and smoke. i became a daily smoker until recently (3 years later) i dont feel that good and all i want to feel is that rush inside my head i felt when i first began smoking. I can finish up to 1 pack a day and i dont feel anything. im an addict to the worst drug in america and the worst part is my family still has no clue until this very day.

I work in a 24 hours shop mostly nightshift.
My boss is a complete retard. He thinks he's the coolest guy on earth and everyone else is a loser and he doesn't realize that he's the jerk. Altough it would be his duty to count the money and bring the earnings to the bank, he doesn't do it. He always instructs me to do that. But that's not my job!
He's such a lazy ass. And because I don't like him and because he thinks he can do what he wants I take cigarettes and booze each time before I leave the store. He won't notice it because I have to keep track of all books.

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I smoke for a lot of reasons that I don't tell anyone because they'll tell me how stupid it is. Smoking helps regulate my ibs. It helps me relax my overly tense muscles. Mostly though, I use it as what's probably a form of bulimia. I'm afraid of gaining weight if I quit. I hate smoking sometimes but I don't want to quit.

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I smoked tea leaves in a psychiatric hospital , because they wouldn't let you have cigarettes. Finding that one match was a tribulation. I had to share the cigarette after I found a nut with a match. Yes they are nuts. They are all nuts.

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