Careless Confessions

I am pregnant.
I let my boyfriend cum inside me just because. When we found out I talked about abortion. He wont pay for me to get one. Neither will my parents.

I dont want a baby. Maybe I kinda sorta thought I did. Im 12 weeks in. Ive heard the heartbeat and I just..i just dont want it. Honestly Im kind of hoping that something happens and I miscarry so I dont have to deal with it. I could also get more attention and sympathy that way.

I have smoked weed while I knew I was pregnant. I also took Robotussin and Mucinex DM to robotrip. I still smoke cigs when I can. Because.well. i just dont care.

Its not that i dont care about my baby, i dont care about anyone, really. Thats something ive realized reading these confessions. I just like attention and doing what I want. I dont really care who I hurt. I know Ive manipulated people on purpose but it just doesnt really get to me. I think that now once Ive realized this and harnessed my true power I will take it to the extreme.

Before when I did things I really did feel bad..but now I dont care. At all.

I dont want forgiveness. I dont want to change either, honestly.

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I am a pyromaniac since I was little. I had fun with fire from the cradle especially lightening fire had always fascinated me. I enjoyed lighting bigger things like hay bale or wodden boards. I thought it was great fun.
But one day it got a bit out of hand. You have to know that I live in the countryside and we had a farm with a big barn in the back. I used to light the hay bales or something like that behind that barn but I had been very careless one evening, so the barn caught fire.
I was so terrified that I ran away. Luckily, we hadn't had any animals in the barn to that time, so only the barn was destroyed. My parents doesn't know until know that it was my fault that our barn burnt to the ground.
It was a really big thing back then, with the police investigating and the insurance that didn't want to pay for the damage. Now I am glad that it's all over and I hope that no one will find out about it.

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